Today

Thank you to everyone for your kind prayers for us today. Boy, it was a hard hard day for me, very emotional. We were "suppose" to be submitted today. Our facilitator called the SDA yesterday to make sure they would still accept our dossier today since this transition they will quit taking dossiers anyday and noone really knows when...and they said yes. So this morning they tried to submit us and they would not take our dossier....long story! Very very long story short I do not want to bore or confuse you as I myself am a bit confused....we had to get some documents changed up based on a decision we had to make quickly this morning and then got them Apostilled and FedExed out to Ukraine....they may or may not be there in time to be submitted. I am EXHAUSTED physically and emotionally. Yes, we are still seeking "D" if you are wandering...however with our country...there are no promises, but yes, we still are in this for him until the Lord Himself closes the door...this has been a hard journey and today for the first time ever in the journey I wanted to tear my documents up and not complete this adoption...Mike quickly reminded me in my helpless state that was not the Lord's will and that we must continue on for "D" or which ever child the Lord has for us there.

God's will will not always be a road of roses but in His will we will find Him there every step of the way.......which leads me on to this...

Remember how it took our documents almost 2 weeks to get to the Ukraine when it was suppose to take 3 days....Well after day 8 I got this horrible feeling that someone had our documents...I physically cried and cried and cried out to the Lord that day to have mercy on our situation, to protect our documents and to intervene...well today we were told some news that shocked me to say the lest. Our facilitator sent us pictures of what our documents looked like when they arrived to him. I tried to post on here the pics of our documents that he had sent us but it will not let me. In all his years of doing this work he had never had documents arrive in such a condition. I made me feel as someone had gutted my insides and yet at the very same time I am in absolute awe and humbled at the Lord and how HE protected us and our documents He truely had mercy...you see....someone did have our documents and that is why it took them so long to get to the Ukraine...they had pretty much torn shreds from our folder trying to rip the documents from the plastic sleves I had very carefully placed them in. According to our facilitator they were looking for money possibly or maybe even identity theft...so now we have to file possibly identity theft with our officials to protect us as so much personal information...pretty much all the personal information on us you could think of was in that folder. It seems as though someone was getting into them and then for what ever reason got distracted quickly and did not get to finish his job of shredding our precious documents...we are so suprised that he did not just trash the documents...I cry just looking at our folder. Our facilitator was able to get everything looking pretty...I am  most of all today...thankful to the Lord and the peace I can lay down to tonight knowing that He has all this in His hands and I can sleep and let Him work out the details to this path He has called us to. Praise be to God, I love Him so and as hard as this has been, it has only been for my own good as it has pulled me closer to Him, I am so greatful!