Emotions

Boy...the emotions are flowing! I woke up this morning to behold the view of our lovely luggage staring me right in the face. This journey has been  a long road and now as the time approaches it seems things are happening so quickly...we were warned this was how we would feel. I am broken at the thought that the precious time with my children is counting down quickly...the thought to me is unbearable. So, this morning I fixed the kids breakfast and went back to bed to cry in my sorrows...the Lord gave me comfort and then I was better...I opened my computer to read a blog of a family who we have been following who are in country now....while at their visit this morning at their child's orphanage, a young mother came in crying and sit on the bench next to them in the play room where they were playing with the child they are adopting....tears were running down this young mothers eyes...a few minutes later a nanny brought a baby to this lady...she was the child's mother. The mother embracing and crying over her little baby, then pulled out an old film camera...the mom who is there adopting walked over to her to see if she could take her picture with her baby, she was able to get 2 pictures of them. The momma stayed with her baby for a short time longer and then the nanny came to take the baby away. This could have possibly been the last visit this momma will ever have with her baby. She obviously loved her baby and was broken over leaving her. I cannot imagine her pain as I get ready to leave my babies for a short time,  I know that Lord willing I will be returning to them. How quickly I am reminded to not judge these birth mommas as we know that children with special needs are sometimes shunned by their families..we also know that is not always the case. Sometimes these orphans are/were greatly loved by their families and through much much pain they come to the decision that in the best interest of their child, they give them up for adoption for many hard reasons we may not be able to understand so much in our own country. I have said before and still feel such gratefulness to our child's birth momma for giving her child life and giving us a child to love on, to raise and to call our own...that decision may have possibly been a very heart wrenching decision for her.