Still waiting....

The soonest we will hear something is this Tuesday or Wednesday as our child's country is closed for their (Jan 7th) Christmas. I am still hoping we will be leaving the very end of this month to the very first of Feb. In the mean time I have been gathering things for our trip and tossing them in the suitcases. I had/am having a really hard time buying anything for "D". Maybe it is the Lord preparing my heart that we will come home with a different child...or maybe I just struggle with attaching myself even more to him buy buying clothes for him when I know there are no guarantees. So...Mike and I decided to buy somethings (socks, white t shirts, couple Pj sets, gloves, coat, hat, couple pairs of jogging pants and some soft tops)...if the Lord gives us a child that cannot use those then we can either donate them to the orphanage or bring them back home for Luke to wear. If we do get "D" I just cannot imagine that the town where he is will have too many shopping options at all. So..we need to bring those things in case.

My emotions here are everywhere. I am about to go on a trip that I have wanted to take since I was in high school...I never though I would actually get to go and that the Lord would have me to be the mother of a child there..so I am ecstatic to say the very least my adrenaline is pumping. At the same time I feel my heart is being pulled from my chest as I leave my 4 babies back home for this length of time. This is one of the most exciting yet most painful times of my life.

I would love to say that next time I post..it will be to announce a date...however we all know from our international adoption process....don't get your hopes to high, things do not always move the way we want them to move :)